Damn, I have not posted on this thing in quite a while. Anyways all of us had a nice ride till Kevin got two flat tires again. Anyways we got stranded at this park waiting for Lance and Addy to come back and pick us up. In the mean time we made this funny stop motion video of Raymond with special effects from Kevin. LOL. I put this together in windows movie maker in 5 minutes and choose a random Nujabes song because I still have more homework. Well enjoy!
Sky Hype.
So we're trying to expand and reach out to more people out there. Crambosho and I stumbled upon Skype. 
We know that skype has been out for a while now, but we decided to open some accounts and see if how this nifty application works. So far it's pretty cool. If you don't know what it is, it's basically an online phone. You can "call" other skype users and have a conversation via computer microphone for free. You can actually call anyone with a cell phone number or land line using skype, but it costs money.
Anyways, I was hoping to use this to talk to people and do some interviews over the internet. We just started so we're still figuring the process of it all, but there is a means to it all. So hit us up on skype if you want to get interviewed and get asked some questions. We'll grill you on some controversial topics so bring your "A" game. My user name is: kazo015. Come find me on skype! Over and out.
Btw, the website is www.skype.com
We know that skype has been out for a while now, but we decided to open some accounts and see if how this nifty application works. So far it's pretty cool. If you don't know what it is, it's basically an online phone. You can "call" other skype users and have a conversation via computer microphone for free. You can actually call anyone with a cell phone number or land line using skype, but it costs money. Anyways, I was hoping to use this to talk to people and do some interviews over the internet. We just started so we're still figuring the process of it all, but there is a means to it all. So hit us up on skype if you want to get interviewed and get asked some questions. We'll grill you on some controversial topics so bring your "A" game. My user name is: kazo015. Come find me on skype! Over and out.
Btw, the website is www.skype.com
Hiatus.
I'm sure you all noticed that there has been a shortage of posts on our blog. It has been brought to our attention as well.
We've been pretty busy lately. Addy is off in Thailand...and everyone has been lazy. lol. I guarantee that we will be back up on it though. We're going to have a team meeting and come back with updates and a whole new approach! Excited? I know.
Please...don't miss us too much. =)
We've been pretty busy lately. Addy is off in Thailand...and everyone has been lazy. lol. I guarantee that we will be back up on it though. We're going to have a team meeting and come back with updates and a whole new approach! Excited? I know.
Please...don't miss us too much. =)
funny vids
so im back again to drop off a some quick vids that made me laugh im pretty sure you guys seen it already but i still think its funny well here you are enjoy.
Closure
So i noticed that us pretty boys haven't been posting lately so i decided to break the pause for us. Just a lot of shit going on like 4th of July which was amazing but a little bit embarrassing because of how i am when I'm super drunk which ill probably get into later on a different post, Kevin got a new little toy which he'll probably post in about a couple of days and Justin was out of town and ray well iono why he hasn't posted seems a little odd hes usually the one posting a lot but he was on the trip with us.....but anyways I'm side tracking so ill just get right down to the point.
Today i want to talk about closure? Why i don't know its been on my mind a lot lately and I've been wondering if i needed it. I feel a part of my life was just left alone or dropped due to immaturity and of course not enough experience. I usually don't like talking about this subject just because i feel what i did was right... But its been YEARS since what had happened and I'm rethinking if what i did was the right thing. To tell you guys the truth i consider that i only been in one relationship anything after that was just hmm how can i put this nicely, casual dating.. iono. Well anyways that relationship was my first real experience with all of the good stuff, the kissing, the hugging, the late night phone calls, and of course sex. But it was also my experience with insecurity, lies, cheating, and the arguments. So i had the hole nine yards with that relationship well except the closure.
I don't remember clearly but i think we ended it because of me going out to much that week (yeah i know stupid but we were young) but i simply thought hey we'll just get back together in a couple of days.....well i was wrong we didn't get back with each other. We stayed broken up longer than usual and i just thought hey just more time for me to go out and have fun and little did i know two months has pass by and i was still single but she was taken. Honestly I didn't know what to do after i found out to be happy that i was out of a relationship or sad that the person that knew me the most and put up with all of my bullshit moved on. Now I'm not saying we were in a perfect relationship but we had our moments and i just wanted our relationship to have ended in good terms.
Honestly you are probably thinking while reading this blog "quit being a little bitch and move on" and i totally agree with you but i thought i did and yet I'm here typing all this crap. But just to let you know I am going to take action. What I'm going to do is tell her what i simply have typed to you guys and hopefully get a clear understanding why we didn't get back together and get the closure i need.
Today i want to talk about closure? Why i don't know its been on my mind a lot lately and I've been wondering if i needed it. I feel a part of my life was just left alone or dropped due to immaturity and of course not enough experience. I usually don't like talking about this subject just because i feel what i did was right... But its been YEARS since what had happened and I'm rethinking if what i did was the right thing. To tell you guys the truth i consider that i only been in one relationship anything after that was just hmm how can i put this nicely, casual dating.. iono. Well anyways that relationship was my first real experience with all of the good stuff, the kissing, the hugging, the late night phone calls, and of course sex. But it was also my experience with insecurity, lies, cheating, and the arguments. So i had the hole nine yards with that relationship well except the closure.
I don't remember clearly but i think we ended it because of me going out to much that week (yeah i know stupid but we were young) but i simply thought hey we'll just get back together in a couple of days.....well i was wrong we didn't get back with each other. We stayed broken up longer than usual and i just thought hey just more time for me to go out and have fun and little did i know two months has pass by and i was still single but she was taken. Honestly I didn't know what to do after i found out to be happy that i was out of a relationship or sad that the person that knew me the most and put up with all of my bullshit moved on. Now I'm not saying we were in a perfect relationship but we had our moments and i just wanted our relationship to have ended in good terms.
Honestly you are probably thinking while reading this blog "quit being a little bitch and move on" and i totally agree with you but i thought i did and yet I'm here typing all this crap. But just to let you know I am going to take action. What I'm going to do is tell her what i simply have typed to you guys and hopefully get a clear understanding why we didn't get back together and get the closure i need.
Things Girls Need To Know.
10. Stop taking 2 hour showers. Does it really take you that long? Unless you're using a pipette.
9. Just because your boyfriend is talking to another girl doesn't mean he's going to cheat. He's just preparing a back-up plan.
8. A man needs to hang out with his friends sometimes. Spending all his time with you will drive him insane.
7. If you're just going around the corner to pick up a cup of coffee or stop by the grocery store, you don't need to spend an hour getting ready as if a huge party will be at Safeway.
6. No, not every guy you meet has a crush on you. You aren't all that.
5. You need to stop talking shit about other girls, but then act like BFF's with them when they're around. It's annoying.
4. If he's treating you like shit, why should you stick around waiting for him to flush you down again?
3. Hey, here's a thought, maybe you should give some guys a chance. Not all guys are looking to hit it and quit it. Use some common sense and good judgment!
2. Sorry, I usually don't like my birthday cake on a human face. Seriously, putting all that make-up is backfiring on you. Most guys prefer the natural and the "good morning" look.
1. Stop playing games. The only games I like to play are on my Xbox 360. I don't need it in real life too. If you like us, then like us and get to know us. If you don't, don't bullshit us.
Thank you. Any thoughts? =)
9. Just because your boyfriend is talking to another girl doesn't mean he's going to cheat. He's just preparing a back-up plan.
8. A man needs to hang out with his friends sometimes. Spending all his time with you will drive him insane.
7. If you're just going around the corner to pick up a cup of coffee or stop by the grocery store, you don't need to spend an hour getting ready as if a huge party will be at Safeway.
6. No, not every guy you meet has a crush on you. You aren't all that.
5. You need to stop talking shit about other girls, but then act like BFF's with them when they're around. It's annoying.
4. If he's treating you like shit, why should you stick around waiting for him to flush you down again?
3. Hey, here's a thought, maybe you should give some guys a chance. Not all guys are looking to hit it and quit it. Use some common sense and good judgment!
2. Sorry, I usually don't like my birthday cake on a human face. Seriously, putting all that make-up is backfiring on you. Most guys prefer the natural and the "good morning" look.
1. Stop playing games. The only games I like to play are on my Xbox 360. I don't need it in real life too. If you like us, then like us and get to know us. If you don't, don't bullshit us.
Thank you. Any thoughts? =)
penis
surrounded by alpha's, life feels like a beta, nothing but loud noises seep into my mind, peace and quiet is what i seek, but laughter is said to be the cure, but still the headache stays, as i stare into emptiness all day.
Cycle Gear's San Jose Bike Night
Bike nights are usually every Thursday but this was Cycle Gear's first bike night in San Jose. Cycle Gear usually only have there meets in Sacramento. Unlink most bike nights I go to they aren't sponsored events such as this one so there was free food, drinks, and raffles for prizes!
Jonathan and I got raffle tickets trying to win some new leathers or track days. Unfortunately we didn't win any of those but we did manage to get new riding backpacks from the raffle!
Here's my new bag:
So yeh was cool met up with Ann and Car at the meet as well as some members from BAD.
We left the meet at around 9pm after and rode to Ann's house with a few other bikers then managed to ride to Union City to meet up with a few other riders and hang out for a while. Overall the bike meet was good. Free food, drinks and prizes made it worth going to.
On other news I think I might need a new battery for my bike since I had to jump start it at the gas station today since the battery some how wouldn't crank. Worked perfectly right after that. I'll have to check it out later.
Jonathan and I got raffle tickets trying to win some new leathers or track days. Unfortunately we didn't win any of those but we did manage to get new riding backpacks from the raffle!
Here's my new bag:
So yeh was cool met up with Ann and Car at the meet as well as some members from BAD.
We left the meet at around 9pm after and rode to Ann's house with a few other bikers then managed to ride to Union City to meet up with a few other riders and hang out for a while. Overall the bike meet was good. Free food, drinks and prizes made it worth going to.
On other news I think I might need a new battery for my bike since I had to jump start it at the gas station today since the battery some how wouldn't crank. Worked perfectly right after that. I'll have to check it out later.
Fitter. Happier. More Productive.
I need to start sleeping early.
I sleep too late.
I post too late.
School starts soon.
I've been listening to the new Black Eyed Peas album a lot lately.
I want to dance.
I play too much video games.
I want to hike more.
I want a bike.
I feel healthier than I was two months ago.
I listen to a lot of music.
I love ping pong.
(but not the old lady...well...maybe. lol)
Thank you for reading this. If you did. If not, fuck you. Just kidding. Watch our videos. "www.youtube.com/theneverendingshit"
I'm done. Good night.
I sleep too late.
I post too late.
School starts soon.
I've been listening to the new Black Eyed Peas album a lot lately.
I want to dance.
I play too much video games.
I want to hike more.
I want a bike.
I feel healthier than I was two months ago.
I listen to a lot of music.
I love ping pong.
(but not the old lady...well...maybe. lol)
Thank you for reading this. If you did. If not, fuck you. Just kidding. Watch our videos. "www.youtube.com/theneverendingshit"
I'm done. Good night.
Fixed
This came and was dropped off on my front door for me today while I was eating my fish and rice.
I still need to adjust my handlebars, but I couldn't help but ride it right away. Man does it feel good to be back on two wheels instead of four. I remember my grandfather drilling me to learn how to ride a bike standing up, fast, with no hands, and all of that snazzy stuff and only to come back to yet another bike, brings me nostalgia of what my grandfather taught me.
Hit me up if you guys are ever down to bike, I'm soooo down. Wait, let me buy a better fucking seat for my bike first. My ass is pretty sore cause of the damn seat, no homo.
This little child makes me feel bad about myself. I wish that my parents had encouraged me to take some kind of dance when I was a younger tot just so I could be much better today. It's fine, anything'll do.
Oh, and to end this on a disappointing note, my contract with Verizon ends in one more month..
have a great evening guys
I still need to adjust my handlebars, but I couldn't help but ride it right away. Man does it feel good to be back on two wheels instead of four. I remember my grandfather drilling me to learn how to ride a bike standing up, fast, with no hands, and all of that snazzy stuff and only to come back to yet another bike, brings me nostalgia of what my grandfather taught me.
Hit me up if you guys are ever down to bike, I'm soooo down. Wait, let me buy a better fucking seat for my bike first. My ass is pretty sore cause of the damn seat, no homo.
This little child makes me feel bad about myself. I wish that my parents had encouraged me to take some kind of dance when I was a younger tot just so I could be much better today. It's fine, anything'll do.
Oh, and to end this on a disappointing note, my contract with Verizon ends in one more month..
have a great evening guys
Vanguard
I caught myself wearing my red vans.. again.
So last Sunday, after an extremely hard day at work, my family and I went to a marching band kind of show. Not my kind of thing to be honest, I am a wind instrument kind of guy. (Obviously relating to my experience of playing the tenor saxophone) It was enjoyable, though video was prohibited so I wasn't able to get the beats on video. I was allowed to proceed with my Sony DLSR (yeah, I know Sony DLSRs sucks) and took some nice photos.
There were only two major groups that performed, the Blue Devils as well as the Santa Clara Vanguard. I must say, that I feel like I missed out in high school. Instruments have inspired my throughout my life and seeing it in action again just makes me wish I pursued my skills in my saxophone.
The event was held at Independence High School. My mom told me to leave my car because she was scared people at Independence would break into my car again. It's just the fresh-break-in symptom that people typically experience. And here is my wonderful family.
Have a good night guys.
What drives me insane
This little puzzle of Raymond's. I am going crazy trying to figure it out.
Basically the objective of this thing is to get the silver ring out:
I took this thing to work today and let a co worker try it. I think she made it more difficult than it already was by tangling it all up. I get headaches just thinking about it now. I got about one more day to solve it then I think it's Addy's turn to give it a go. It's harder than it looks. Trust me.
Basically the objective of this thing is to get the silver ring out:
I took this thing to work today and let a co worker try it. I think she made it more difficult than it already was by tangling it all up. I get headaches just thinking about it now. I got about one more day to solve it then I think it's Addy's turn to give it a go. It's harder than it looks. Trust me.
Mission Peak, Fucking Bitches
So Mission Peak was fun. More on that later.
Some mother fuckers decided that my window was the one they wanted to break and take my wallet in the process. To make a long story short, I got pissed, canceled all my cards, and then tried to track these bitches.
Me and the neverendingshitters went on a mission to Mission Peak, which we murdered by the way, and we come back only to find that my window had been shattered and my wallet had been taken. Fortunately that's all they took, leading me to believe that it was a quick ass deal. Anyways, I call Bank of America and they tell me that they literally just used my debit card with an invalid pin at a gas station, USA Petroleum, which we then thought of inputting into my GPS to find the closest one. Lo and behold there is the one in Fremont where we track these mother fuckers, but they had apparently left already.
It's alright, I didn't lose too much, just made me go through the hassle of fixing shit, recovering my driver's license and credit cards and paying for my window. Lesson learned, don't use your car as a locker. Have a good afternoon.
YouShit.com
http://www.youtube.com/theneverendingshit
It's finally up. Don't worry, more videos will be up. Prepare to spend hours on our youtube channel watching our interesting lives. Hugs and kisses.
It's finally up. Don't worry, more videos will be up. Prepare to spend hours on our youtube channel watching our interesting lives. Hugs and kisses.
Damn, People and Their Skills
In the midst of a whole shit load of new things to come, I'd like to leave you all with a sexy video from a man who delivers with an ukulele. His technique and empowerment with his four stringer is superb. Now if I only had the skills of being able to recreate that damn masterpiece..
Don't Lose Your Head.
Hi! Missed me huh? I know I haven't posted in a while, it's ok because I'm posting right now. I'm sure many of you have been saying "Where's Raymond been? I miss him so much. He's so hot." Something like that. Anyways, I've just been chillin. I've been trying to sleep early because I felt a sickness coming on; so I've been drinking Theraflu at night and it puts me to sleep fast. Actually, I'm drinking a cup right now so if I start typing nonsense, it's because I'm falling asleep at the keyboard haha.
So I hung out with a good friend of mine today. We went to Subway for our sandwich cravings and then Starbucks for our coffee desires. I ordered a White Chocolate Mocha with soy and raspberry syrup. Hella good. I stole that drink from a special somebody ;) (not really). After the baristas served up our beverages, we sat in comfortable chairs and chopped it up for a lengthy time. I have to say that Hanh, the good friend, has quite a mind to speak. She has a lot to say. And I'm not saying that in a way where I mean she talks a lot and its just chatter chatter chatter. She has a lot of insight, especially when it comes to relationships haha. You see, she just got out of a long and troubling relationship. I'm not quite sure if she'll approve of me talking about her relationship in detail, although I don't know the details, but I'll try to speak about it discreetly and generally.
Pretty much, she went through a lot of young girls go through before they reach an epiphany. Foolishly in love, will do anything for her man, withstands a bunch of bullshit, tries to get out of it, only to fall back into routine time and time again. It's sad. Hearing what she had to say about it, brings an optimistic side of things. Before, I used to think there was no hope for girls. I used to think that some girls are just born to play with others' emotions and some are the opposite. Then after Vanessa, I realized that it takes time...A LOT of time for most girls to get over their first love. Now, after a conversation with Hanh, I see the better side of things. I see that she has learned her lesson and that she's only grown stronger from her situation. She wasn't saying things like "Omg...he's the only one for me, I need him, I can't see myself with anyone else, FML!!!" I asked her "If he became the guy you wanted to be, the IDEAL guy you've always wanted him to be, and that he's finally changed, would you get back with him?" She firmly said "No." No because she reasoned that people don't change. She's seen it before. She's seen her boyfriend "change" for a few months but ultimately going back to the way things were. And she's been through this vicious circle multiple times.
Some people are just the way they are. I know I've said this many times that people don't change. I say that because think of it this way: Why try so hard to be someone you aren't? If you have a certain personality about you and live a certain style, why deny it? You are that way for a reason. BE YOURSELF! I can relate to this because I tried to be a certain way for someone before. After a while, it gets tiring. You end up putting more effort trying to keep on this mask rather than putting effort into the actual relationship. Hanh made this strange, but accurate analogy: "A serial killer is a serial killer. Just because he doesn't kill today doesn't mean he won't kill tomorrow." I'm sure she means that just because someone is this persona that you've wanted is there one day does not guarantee that it'll be there the next.
I really enjoyed my sit-down with Hanh. She's a grown woman that knows what she's doing and knows what she needs to do. I admire her intelligence and spiritual strength. She admits that there are times of weakness and old feelings come up, but who doesn't suffer from that? We always start to reminisce and slightly wish things could go back to the time where the happiness was legitimate, but looking into the past only gets you lost for the future. She really inspired me to keep my head up, learn from my mistakes, and pretty much let it be. Just let it be. I realized that I shouldn't look for something or someone to blame, but to look for something or someone to learn. I've learned a lot and I'm still learning everyday. I only hope that others out there are learning too. It's not only the learning part of it, but the willingness to learn; the ability to swallow your pride and keep an open mind. It's a beautiful thing as to what the human spirit can overcome.
So I hung out with a good friend of mine today. We went to Subway for our sandwich cravings and then Starbucks for our coffee desires. I ordered a White Chocolate Mocha with soy and raspberry syrup. Hella good. I stole that drink from a special somebody ;) (not really). After the baristas served up our beverages, we sat in comfortable chairs and chopped it up for a lengthy time. I have to say that Hanh, the good friend, has quite a mind to speak. She has a lot to say. And I'm not saying that in a way where I mean she talks a lot and its just chatter chatter chatter. She has a lot of insight, especially when it comes to relationships haha. You see, she just got out of a long and troubling relationship. I'm not quite sure if she'll approve of me talking about her relationship in detail, although I don't know the details, but I'll try to speak about it discreetly and generally.
Pretty much, she went through a lot of young girls go through before they reach an epiphany. Foolishly in love, will do anything for her man, withstands a bunch of bullshit, tries to get out of it, only to fall back into routine time and time again. It's sad. Hearing what she had to say about it, brings an optimistic side of things. Before, I used to think there was no hope for girls. I used to think that some girls are just born to play with others' emotions and some are the opposite. Then after Vanessa, I realized that it takes time...A LOT of time for most girls to get over their first love. Now, after a conversation with Hanh, I see the better side of things. I see that she has learned her lesson and that she's only grown stronger from her situation. She wasn't saying things like "Omg...he's the only one for me, I need him, I can't see myself with anyone else, FML!!!" I asked her "If he became the guy you wanted to be, the IDEAL guy you've always wanted him to be, and that he's finally changed, would you get back with him?" She firmly said "No." No because she reasoned that people don't change. She's seen it before. She's seen her boyfriend "change" for a few months but ultimately going back to the way things were. And she's been through this vicious circle multiple times.
Some people are just the way they are. I know I've said this many times that people don't change. I say that because think of it this way: Why try so hard to be someone you aren't? If you have a certain personality about you and live a certain style, why deny it? You are that way for a reason. BE YOURSELF! I can relate to this because I tried to be a certain way for someone before. After a while, it gets tiring. You end up putting more effort trying to keep on this mask rather than putting effort into the actual relationship. Hanh made this strange, but accurate analogy: "A serial killer is a serial killer. Just because he doesn't kill today doesn't mean he won't kill tomorrow." I'm sure she means that just because someone is this persona that you've wanted is there one day does not guarantee that it'll be there the next.
I really enjoyed my sit-down with Hanh. She's a grown woman that knows what she's doing and knows what she needs to do. I admire her intelligence and spiritual strength. She admits that there are times of weakness and old feelings come up, but who doesn't suffer from that? We always start to reminisce and slightly wish things could go back to the time where the happiness was legitimate, but looking into the past only gets you lost for the future. She really inspired me to keep my head up, learn from my mistakes, and pretty much let it be. Just let it be. I realized that I shouldn't look for something or someone to blame, but to look for something or someone to learn. I've learned a lot and I'm still learning everyday. I only hope that others out there are learning too. It's not only the learning part of it, but the willingness to learn; the ability to swallow your pride and keep an open mind. It's a beautiful thing as to what the human spirit can overcome.
New Nombre
just for the people im just changing m name just cause its not like i don't like intrex but just that i believe i don't have the full right to have that name because it belong to someone else i new so im just taken on mugen just simply because its Japanese for infinity and i believe my words and wisdom will last forever haha jk
Butterfly
Took a pretty cool shot of a butterfly today just wanted to share lol.
Damn I cant post the high quality on this for some reason because the picture gets cut off if its to big when I post. Oh well haha. Doesn't do the image justice.
Damn I cant post the high quality on this for some reason because the picture gets cut off if its to big when I post. Oh well haha. Doesn't do the image justice.
Sequence some more!!
So let me tell you.... it is a game of passion and it will turn your foes into friends and your friends into foes...dont get it, you will when you have enjoy a victorious win in sequence...or loss. Tonight, as ashamed as i am of saying this i lost 5 in a row AGAIN. And I am a super sore loser especially when you cant belive it because you were soo close of achieving it. Well thats it for my post i am still upset about my tragedy so until i become triumphant many times again.
Why Sequence?
Sequence is a game of skill, luck, and the ability to kick another person's ass, all of which we are good at.
Anyways, Sequence is a game of sweat. What do I mean by sweat? I mean.. mental sweat. That's right, it will be so taxing on your mind that it will make your brain go through respiration. Or maybe that's the feeling you get when you're getting pounding by professionals like us. And it doesn't really matter what we did before, whether we took the SAT's again for fun, or because of ping pong (another thing we'll smash you guys at) we will always be willing for a game of Sequence.
Now now, let's remember that we are still decent and kind people. But throw us in the stadium of Sequence, and we're gladiators. As Justin has already pointed out, being "homo" is part of our elite strategy which always gives us the edge. Whether is be that the other guys are jealous, or that girls are envious of our sexual drive, either way, it makes them lose track of the game. Maybe another reason why people think we are "homo" is simply because they have a lack of a better word for "someone who will smash you in Sequence."
I have got to say, that the word losers doesn't even belong to a winner's dictionary. Instead of losers, we call them enemies, enemies that we will crush.
So yes, if you guys ever have a free night, 1 hour-10 hours. Let us know, pretty boys are always on our feet, or fingers, to whoop yo ass. Oh, and by the way, I think I just shitted in my pants to how true this blog is.
Anyways, Sequence is a game of sweat. What do I mean by sweat? I mean.. mental sweat. That's right, it will be so taxing on your mind that it will make your brain go through respiration. Or maybe that's the feeling you get when you're getting pounding by professionals like us. And it doesn't really matter what we did before, whether we took the SAT's again for fun, or because of ping pong (another thing we'll smash you guys at) we will always be willing for a game of Sequence.
Now now, let's remember that we are still decent and kind people. But throw us in the stadium of Sequence, and we're gladiators. As Justin has already pointed out, being "homo" is part of our elite strategy which always gives us the edge. Whether is be that the other guys are jealous, or that girls are envious of our sexual drive, either way, it makes them lose track of the game. Maybe another reason why people think we are "homo" is simply because they have a lack of a better word for "someone who will smash you in Sequence."
I have got to say, that the word losers doesn't even belong to a winner's dictionary. Instead of losers, we call them enemies, enemies that we will crush.
So yes, if you guys ever have a free night, 1 hour-10 hours. Let us know, pretty boys are always on our feet, or fingers, to whoop yo ass. Oh, and by the way, I think I just shitted in my pants to how true this blog is.
Why sequence makes us sexy.
Now a lot of our fans have been wondering about this game we play called Sequence. Now us Pretty Boys are not only amazing athletes and jocks as you would know if you ever see us play Ping Pong. We like to switch it up and play strategic games such as sequence once in a while. I mean not everyone can connect 5 chips in a row like us.
Why do we play Sequence all sweaty? We'll to answer that question its because we usually play after a hardcore game of Ping Pong. We like to exercise our minds with Sequence after we got a workout playing Ping Pong. We call it the full body workout routine.
Why do we sometimes act "homo" while playing this game? It's all part of our gaming strategy; it throws our competition off.
Now if you think you got what it takes to play us Sequence elitists feel free to challenge us. Don't think we'll go easy on you either. When you think you're winning I'll throw a one-eyed jack down on you, yeh thats right. When you think I'm winning, you're right. I probably got a two-eyed jack in my hand.
You'll never know though because we always got our poker faces on:
Why do we play Sequence all sweaty? We'll to answer that question its because we usually play after a hardcore game of Ping Pong. We like to exercise our minds with Sequence after we got a workout playing Ping Pong. We call it the full body workout routine.
Why do we sometimes act "homo" while playing this game? It's all part of our gaming strategy; it throws our competition off.
Now if you think you got what it takes to play us Sequence elitists feel free to challenge us. Don't think we'll go easy on you either. When you think you're winning I'll throw a one-eyed jack down on you, yeh thats right. When you think I'm winning, you're right. I probably got a two-eyed jack in my hand.
You'll never know though because we always got our poker faces on:
Sequence
So Jessica brought up the idea of posting about a certain subject.
So for the next 4 posts, I think all four of us should post about the same thing, with varying perspectives about Sequence. Probably should be interesting. Read it niggas
So for the next 4 posts, I think all four of us should post about the same thing, with varying perspectives about Sequence. Probably should be interesting. Read it niggas
Jumping off second story buildings.
So I was out riding last night with Maryanne, Car, and Drea. After our ride from the UC bucket we decided to all to go to Micheal Korn-walker's new condo for his housewarming party.
I picked up Anne and met up with Drea, Car, and David we head in and run into hella familiar faces, it was cool. Took some shots, drank some beer got a buzz going on. Met this girl named Madonna chopped it up with her she's real cool. Well some girl kept bumping into Madonna so she pushed the girl back. This girl comes back trying to start drama so I gotta help hold this other girl back from Madonna. The song "Girl Fight" starts playing during this so we all started laughing then some friends of the other girl takes her away, drama ends there.
Well party goes on from there just talking and playing Rock Band. Supposedly there is some drama happening outside with one of the neighbors who stole an Ipod. Long story short this guy runs to his house pulls out a gun. people start running away trying to leave the house. People say don't run towards the guy with the gun so people were forcing everyone to get inside the house cause the only way out was towards him. So yep me and a bunch of others are the ones stuck in the house lol. We all head to the very back of the house in the bedroom.
Some guy breaks the window screen and says can we jump off this shit. LOL we are on the second floor on a Condo. Well it was jump able so he jumped off. I jump off second I think. The girls were all scared to jump so I had to catch all of them on their way down. Felt like a firefighter or something lol. Anyways as the last of us manage to get down the cops arrived.
Hella people ran and scattered. 3 people were still stuck on the roof when the cops got there hahaha. I got separated with Anne when she ran because Drea, and Car didn't want to run. We got searched and questioned. Nobody really talked then we were free to let go after they got our ID's. So yeh that was basically my night. It was hella fun though. Just hella crazy. I'm sad because my new pants are pretty dirty from jumping off roofs and sitting on the ground being questioned by cops.
Why do all the crazy things happen when I'm at parties in the Southside lol. Basically I hate people who start drama over stupid things. Come on a damn Ipod. Hope that guy gets it back.
I picked up Anne and met up with Drea, Car, and David we head in and run into hella familiar faces, it was cool. Took some shots, drank some beer got a buzz going on. Met this girl named Madonna chopped it up with her she's real cool. Well some girl kept bumping into Madonna so she pushed the girl back. This girl comes back trying to start drama so I gotta help hold this other girl back from Madonna. The song "Girl Fight" starts playing during this so we all started laughing then some friends of the other girl takes her away, drama ends there.
Well party goes on from there just talking and playing Rock Band. Supposedly there is some drama happening outside with one of the neighbors who stole an Ipod. Long story short this guy runs to his house pulls out a gun. people start running away trying to leave the house. People say don't run towards the guy with the gun so people were forcing everyone to get inside the house cause the only way out was towards him. So yep me and a bunch of others are the ones stuck in the house lol. We all head to the very back of the house in the bedroom.
Some guy breaks the window screen and says can we jump off this shit. LOL we are on the second floor on a Condo. Well it was jump able so he jumped off. I jump off second I think. The girls were all scared to jump so I had to catch all of them on their way down. Felt like a firefighter or something lol. Anyways as the last of us manage to get down the cops arrived.
Hella people ran and scattered. 3 people were still stuck on the roof when the cops got there hahaha. I got separated with Anne when she ran because Drea, and Car didn't want to run. We got searched and questioned. Nobody really talked then we were free to let go after they got our ID's. So yeh that was basically my night. It was hella fun though. Just hella crazy. I'm sad because my new pants are pretty dirty from jumping off roofs and sitting on the ground being questioned by cops.
Why do all the crazy things happen when I'm at parties in the Southside lol. Basically I hate people who start drama over stupid things. Come on a damn Ipod. Hope that guy gets it back.
Epiphany.
So I don't normally do this, but I wanted to shed some light on an artist for all you beloved readers.
Chrisette Michele. I think her most recent hit is "Epiphany (I'm Leaving)." You might've heard it on the radio. I heard it once and I liked the song a lot, but like most radio cases, they never tell you the artist so I didn't think much of it. Just recently I was looking for some music to add to my forever growing library and came across the song again. Thanks to iTunes, I sampled some of her other songs to see if I wanted to download her album. I really enjoyed her style and the production of her music. For me, if I like more than three songs of an artist, I'll usually download the whole album because the other songs are pretty good as well. It's nice to appreciate an artist's single, but it's better to listen to their whole album because I'm sure they put as much effort into other songs as their singles. Anyways, Chrisette Michele has two albums out for now.
I Am (2007)
Epiphany (2009)
Check out those albums. She's done work with Ne-Yo and says that Ne-Yo changed her whole perception of music and singing. Her singing style is jazz influenced, but not too much to where you start thinking she belongs in the jazz section. You can definitely hear the "soul" in her music. Notable songs for me include Notebook, What You Do, Epiphany, and Like A Dream. Overall, her albums are worth listening. If you're into R&B or Soul, Chrisette Michele is definitely someone you should have in your ipod or zune or whatever.
I just wanted to mention another artist real quick. I'm pretty sure most of you have already heard of her, but I just wanted to say that Corinne Bailey Rae's debut album is awesome. I've been listening to it a lot and I don't see myself getting sick of it anytime soon. Her self-titled album features hits like Like A Star, Trouble Sleeping, and Put Your Records On. I can't wait for her to release a sophomore album.
Corinne Bailey Rae (2007)
If you don't already have her in your music library, then you are a hater of music. lol.
Morning.
This is probably the earliest I've been up in a long time. I woke up at 9:30 this morning. WOW! I'm still pretty tired though...and I'll probably end up taking a nap at some point during the day.
Anyways, I went to a pretty dope 80's themed party/bboy barbeque last night. They were blasting music and they had a sessioning floor on the patio. I wish I could break..but I can't. =( The real bboys there were good though. Honestly, it felt so awesome seeing everyone come together by this art form we call "hip hop." It wasn't about who was better or trying to show off like you're the shit. We all just came together to have a good time and dance. Even though I'm pretty sure not everyone knew how to dance or break, we all had an appreciation of hip hop and the disputed culture that surrounds it. Of course you could tell who had been breaking for years and who had probably just started, but it didn't matter because we all had one love towards hip hop. There was some pretty sick dancers there though.
Speaking of sick dancers, I ran into Slim from Supreme Soul there. haha. Random. At a previous party a few months ago, I ran into Mitch at a random party. Apparently, Supreme Soul likes to hang out in San Jose. Anyways, I knew I recognized him from somewhere. I asked him just to make sure, and it wasn't like I was going to get star struck and be like "OMG!! ARE YOU, LIKE, SLIM FROM ABDC!?!?!" If there was any excitement from meeting him, it would be because of his work in Funks SF and his house dancing. I talked to him about house and where the best house clubs are. As the night went forth, he was pretty drunk and so was I. It was hella funny because every time I ran into him, he'd have a new can of beer, and I ran into him maybe about 6 times? hahaha. I also found out that he is Vietnamese! wtf!? I thought he was filipino, which is completely ironic because I always get mistaken as filipino too. We started hella laughing cause people always think we're filipino. hahaha...by the way, I'm Viet and Chinese.
Eventually, the cops came and broke up the party. Boo...Addy and I bounced quickly as possible. As we were walking to the car, a cop car pulled someone over trying to leave the party. He probably almost hit the cop or was driving on the wrong side of the road. When we saw that, we just booked it and took off. lol. When I got home, I just crashed. Now I'm blogging about it yeee!
That was my saturday night. Thanks to Addy for inviting me.
One More Hour
Comfortable - John Mayer
This song just depresses me.
One more hour till work. Another day, another grind. One day world, when I don't need to work, I will kick your ass.
This song just depresses me.
One more hour till work. Another day, another grind. One day world, when I don't need to work, I will kick your ass.
Time to Unwind..
I plan on being a bit more consistent with my posts.
Anyways, to set the mood, I've had an intense last week, even the days following the last final because of work. As you all may, or may not, know, it is memorial day weekend. And when people don't work they love to go to Best Buy and ruin my fucking day. Well, there were a few incredibly nice people, typically white, who seemed to make me love my job and just makes me feel good about myself.
I want to set this out to all those ignorant fucks out there who have a job other than retail and are reasonably older than me. Don't ever look down on a cashier or a customer representative, the only reason why we ever give in to your bullshit is cause we're tired of dealing with assholes like you. Just because I am working 30+ hours a week doesn't mean I have my full attention in school, and to be honest, that puts me on top of your rank, because I can balance two life responsibilities at once. Roll up in your fucking Mercedes Benz bitch, cause I don't give a fuck. Show me your damn diploma, but I'll still reject your 3-month old return item. For all I know, that diploma could mean that you cheated your way out, while I'm the one making money while I'm getting my education. Next thing you know, when I get my damn PHD in psychology, I'll slap you with my hundred dollar bills and shit on your junk ass Benz. Believe me, if the world were ranked in accordance with intellect, you fucks would be at the bottom.
And for all you fucks who decide that using your superiority over your co-workers is awesome, well get this, it fucking isn't. If I were to be a damn supervisor, I would control the world with love, not this animistic ideal and make everybody feel miserable. I don't give a fuck if you've been with a company for 20 years, you still better give the respect people deserve. Give me an order, but thank me afterwards. Tell me to wash the floor with a toothbrush, but tell me I did a good job. Isn't that simple enough? Apparently, it fucking isn't with these assholes believing that a higher salary means a bigger penis. Which, by the way, is no contest for me.
I met Milpitas Best Buys' district manager and I gotta say, he was an awesome guy. And yet to see people below him act like idiots, surprises me that they even landed the spot. I'm a man of my word and I will never disrespect a person unless I have been disrespected. The problem I have is letting people know that something is bothering me about them, until the moment I explode and make it known to the world. Remember, I may be somewhat of a youngin' and new to the fucking company, but I bring in a hell of a lot more revenue, hard work, dedication, credit card applications, leadership, friendship, honesty, customer service, speed, intellect than you ever will bring into your damn life. Also, you can't judge me by one hours' work to your one hour.
That was good.
So I haven't told many people about my new passions so I will now.
1. Cars
I've always driven a legend of a car, my 1985 Toyota Celica GT. A car that was my dad's first car, the car that he literally waxed every week. I now own two cars, both my Celica as well as a 2009 Scion TC. And I gotta say that the TC has given me a lot of experience and passion towards cars, even if it may not be the fastest. I bought jacks, jackstands, a creeper, tools, cleaned the garage and do a whole bunch of shit now just so I can get deeper into cars. I honestly have been working to the point where I can offer help for some people and make a little side money.
I'll make a post later about what I had done to my TC, but I can tell you know that I plan on restoring my Celica 100% to working and showcase condition. Following the completion of my TC, I plan on purchasing an EG, Honda Civic Hatchback, black. Going to start off with an engine swap, and possibly all performance. Yeah, and I don't plan on selling any cars in the future.
If you guys ever have any questions about any of your cars, please feel free to ask me questions, I can guarantee I am not going to completely be accurate nor helpful, but everyone has got to start somewhere and diagnosing problems is one of easiest way for me to learn.
2. Photography
Money is always an issue. I was about to buy a DSLR when I had started to work on my car. To be honest, if I were able to make an in-home dark room, it would be perfect, because I believe that nothing can ever defeat the quality and feel of the film. I recently purchased a Fisheye No. 2 camera from lomography, and I must say that even if Walgreens develops my film, it is such a different experience. No more checking out the screen to see if you took the shot right, or to get a brighter flash, but to depend on your skill and expertise and learn through already developed photos. My next stop is definitely going to be either a Holga or M3 camera. The vintage look and classic feel of the pictures is far more superior to me than what a 15 megapixel camera with zoom lens can produce. (But I still want a DSLR, hahaha)
3. Biking
The theme for my summer is to be in shape. I've remodeled my eating structure, work out time, and habits to hopefully result with a more satisfied body. With that, I plan on purchasing a street bike, something like a fixed bike. I had always been interested in them, I just never had a true opportunity to take advantage and buy one, but I believe that it will only enhance my theme for the summer.
If you bike yourself or just are interested in them, please leave a comment and I'll respond do you directly and immediately.
Anyways, time flies when you have a lot to say, but I gotta admit that time flies fast no matter what you do. Whether it be playing ping pong or even staring at a white wall, the next time you look at your watch, you'll notice that the time you looked away is the time you forgot about time. Time will never leave us, because unfortunately it is something we base our lives upon. Remember the days when we never worried about time, but more about when the sun went down so we can get some free food from our parents?
It's been an extremely long day for me, and it will be again for me tomorrow, so until then, enjoy the rest of your memorial weekend.
good night
Anyways, to set the mood, I've had an intense last week, even the days following the last final because of work. As you all may, or may not, know, it is memorial day weekend. And when people don't work they love to go to Best Buy and ruin my fucking day. Well, there were a few incredibly nice people, typically white, who seemed to make me love my job and just makes me feel good about myself.
I want to set this out to all those ignorant fucks out there who have a job other than retail and are reasonably older than me. Don't ever look down on a cashier or a customer representative, the only reason why we ever give in to your bullshit is cause we're tired of dealing with assholes like you. Just because I am working 30+ hours a week doesn't mean I have my full attention in school, and to be honest, that puts me on top of your rank, because I can balance two life responsibilities at once. Roll up in your fucking Mercedes Benz bitch, cause I don't give a fuck. Show me your damn diploma, but I'll still reject your 3-month old return item. For all I know, that diploma could mean that you cheated your way out, while I'm the one making money while I'm getting my education. Next thing you know, when I get my damn PHD in psychology, I'll slap you with my hundred dollar bills and shit on your junk ass Benz. Believe me, if the world were ranked in accordance with intellect, you fucks would be at the bottom.
And for all you fucks who decide that using your superiority over your co-workers is awesome, well get this, it fucking isn't. If I were to be a damn supervisor, I would control the world with love, not this animistic ideal and make everybody feel miserable. I don't give a fuck if you've been with a company for 20 years, you still better give the respect people deserve. Give me an order, but thank me afterwards. Tell me to wash the floor with a toothbrush, but tell me I did a good job. Isn't that simple enough? Apparently, it fucking isn't with these assholes believing that a higher salary means a bigger penis. Which, by the way, is no contest for me.
I met Milpitas Best Buys' district manager and I gotta say, he was an awesome guy. And yet to see people below him act like idiots, surprises me that they even landed the spot. I'm a man of my word and I will never disrespect a person unless I have been disrespected. The problem I have is letting people know that something is bothering me about them, until the moment I explode and make it known to the world. Remember, I may be somewhat of a youngin' and new to the fucking company, but I bring in a hell of a lot more revenue, hard work, dedication, credit card applications, leadership, friendship, honesty, customer service, speed, intellect than you ever will bring into your damn life. Also, you can't judge me by one hours' work to your one hour.
That was good.
So I haven't told many people about my new passions so I will now.
1. Cars
I've always driven a legend of a car, my 1985 Toyota Celica GT. A car that was my dad's first car, the car that he literally waxed every week. I now own two cars, both my Celica as well as a 2009 Scion TC. And I gotta say that the TC has given me a lot of experience and passion towards cars, even if it may not be the fastest. I bought jacks, jackstands, a creeper, tools, cleaned the garage and do a whole bunch of shit now just so I can get deeper into cars. I honestly have been working to the point where I can offer help for some people and make a little side money.
I'll make a post later about what I had done to my TC, but I can tell you know that I plan on restoring my Celica 100% to working and showcase condition. Following the completion of my TC, I plan on purchasing an EG, Honda Civic Hatchback, black. Going to start off with an engine swap, and possibly all performance. Yeah, and I don't plan on selling any cars in the future.
If you guys ever have any questions about any of your cars, please feel free to ask me questions, I can guarantee I am not going to completely be accurate nor helpful, but everyone has got to start somewhere and diagnosing problems is one of easiest way for me to learn.
2. Photography
Money is always an issue. I was about to buy a DSLR when I had started to work on my car. To be honest, if I were able to make an in-home dark room, it would be perfect, because I believe that nothing can ever defeat the quality and feel of the film. I recently purchased a Fisheye No. 2 camera from lomography, and I must say that even if Walgreens develops my film, it is such a different experience. No more checking out the screen to see if you took the shot right, or to get a brighter flash, but to depend on your skill and expertise and learn through already developed photos. My next stop is definitely going to be either a Holga or M3 camera. The vintage look and classic feel of the pictures is far more superior to me than what a 15 megapixel camera with zoom lens can produce. (But I still want a DSLR, hahaha)
3. Biking
The theme for my summer is to be in shape. I've remodeled my eating structure, work out time, and habits to hopefully result with a more satisfied body. With that, I plan on purchasing a street bike, something like a fixed bike. I had always been interested in them, I just never had a true opportunity to take advantage and buy one, but I believe that it will only enhance my theme for the summer.
If you bike yourself or just are interested in them, please leave a comment and I'll respond do you directly and immediately.
Anyways, time flies when you have a lot to say, but I gotta admit that time flies fast no matter what you do. Whether it be playing ping pong or even staring at a white wall, the next time you look at your watch, you'll notice that the time you looked away is the time you forgot about time. Time will never leave us, because unfortunately it is something we base our lives upon. Remember the days when we never worried about time, but more about when the sun went down so we can get some free food from our parents?
It's been an extremely long day for me, and it will be again for me tomorrow, so until then, enjoy the rest of your memorial weekend.
good night
Fuck You Accounting
You give me one page to take down your final exam?!
Then I will make it one page of greatness. I'll face you in about 2 hours, only to where I will kick your ass, and make it so that the only accounting I will have to do is count how badly I will own you.
But really, I'm fucking scared of accounting. Wish me luck.
good morning
Confessions
So here i am again typing due to people begging me to post something new haha jk. Though i am not one to be open and express myself freely, i like to do it from time to time whether it takes me every three months or every three years. Don't get me wrong i try to be open but growing up i had no one to open too. This may sound like a sad story but its not i believe it has made me wiser and honestly i don't know why i'm speaking like this, maybe its be the recent activities going on that's grab my attention from my own little world or maybe its me realizing that i'm growing up and i still haven't accomplish anything.
Most of my life and probably til this day my mentality has been i can do it better then they can if only i had the proper height or lifestyle etc. But i was so ignorant to notice my own ego for that matter. At first i thought it was confidence then i thought i realize it was being conceded but it was just mere stupidity that has left me in these past couple of years wondering who was i and where did i belong. I'm still looking for that answer today but i'm not as anxious to find the answer, why? Because i spent most of my time trying to look for that answer and i have only found that i was wasting my time and that i let a lot of good things slip away. Luckily i have the company of a few good loking men they know who they are haha.
Honestly i may sound cliche but pretty much everything has already been done and said, im just trying to express myself from experience. I hope that made sense to you guys haha its just people only do things the way they do because thats how there taught. We take what we learn and attempt to apply it with our everyday life situation. I'm not trying to make life sound dull because it isn't, we all do the same thing we just choose to do it our own way. For example all of us are here to live how we live is up to us. Our jobs, or lifestyle, who we chose to love, and who we choose to hate.
Well the main point of my blog session today was letting everyone know that i might join the Air force. Why i might join the air force is because of what i said earlier, i haven't accomplish much in the last 3 years only to drop out of college twice. But the reason why i might not join is because i made a wager with myself and that's if by September i have done something to progress my life where im going somewhere then i'd stay and take a chance. I know 3 and a half months is short to prove to myself that i should stay but i wasted too much time being lazy and disappointing myself and my family. Well whatever happens im going to do my best not try, DO my best ive been trying these past 10 years and it has left me with nothing to be proud of. Well its getting early i havent slept and its 730 in the morning this will be the end of my post hope you enjoyed my rambling ill try to post more often to those who want me too. If you would like to suggest anything leave a comment i'll be sure to get to it in within the next few days haha because i check this blog o so often. other than that im out.
P.S. Felix how do i change my name from INTREX to something else let me know, If you even read this haha
Most of my life and probably til this day my mentality has been i can do it better then they can if only i had the proper height or lifestyle etc. But i was so ignorant to notice my own ego for that matter. At first i thought it was confidence then i thought i realize it was being conceded but it was just mere stupidity that has left me in these past couple of years wondering who was i and where did i belong. I'm still looking for that answer today but i'm not as anxious to find the answer, why? Because i spent most of my time trying to look for that answer and i have only found that i was wasting my time and that i let a lot of good things slip away. Luckily i have the company of a few good loking men they know who they are haha.
Honestly i may sound cliche but pretty much everything has already been done and said, im just trying to express myself from experience. I hope that made sense to you guys haha its just people only do things the way they do because thats how there taught. We take what we learn and attempt to apply it with our everyday life situation. I'm not trying to make life sound dull because it isn't, we all do the same thing we just choose to do it our own way. For example all of us are here to live how we live is up to us. Our jobs, or lifestyle, who we chose to love, and who we choose to hate.
Well the main point of my blog session today was letting everyone know that i might join the Air force. Why i might join the air force is because of what i said earlier, i haven't accomplish much in the last 3 years only to drop out of college twice. But the reason why i might not join is because i made a wager with myself and that's if by September i have done something to progress my life where im going somewhere then i'd stay and take a chance. I know 3 and a half months is short to prove to myself that i should stay but i wasted too much time being lazy and disappointing myself and my family. Well whatever happens im going to do my best not try, DO my best ive been trying these past 10 years and it has left me with nothing to be proud of. Well its getting early i havent slept and its 730 in the morning this will be the end of my post hope you enjoyed my rambling ill try to post more often to those who want me too. If you would like to suggest anything leave a comment i'll be sure to get to it in within the next few days haha because i check this blog o so often. other than that im out.
P.S. Felix how do i change my name from INTREX to something else let me know, If you even read this haha
Infamy.
So this past weekend was my birthday. I have to say, I sure as hell didn't expect all that happened that day. It started out great, just chillin with some peoples Thursday night. I got a nice call from a friend that wished me happy birthday. I have to say, that was probably the highlight of my birthday. I'm just gonna get right down to the dirty dirty of it. This might be lengthy, but I need to mention the details. I'm going to cite this from MY own perspective, but TRY to stay unbiased. I'll do my best.
About a week prior to my birthday, I had planned to have a get together at Fallon's house. Let me just make a quick note that Fallon is a good friend of mine. Keep that in mind. We've had a couple of pleasant deep conversations and what not. On top of that, her and her roommates' house was the kick-it spot. So I figured, why not just have it there since everyone goes there anyways; its a familiar enviornment. So I went ahead and asked the house owners if it was ok. They all said it was fine. Then I invited people and most of them replied they were down to come through. However, they had a show that Friday evening, but that's why I didn't plan a big dinner or anything. Just a get together where I could see my good friends. It was set; meet up at Fallon's after the show. Simple right? Not quite.
A week rolls by and it's the day of. My plan was to go watch the show that MVP(the dance crew that my friends were in) at Battle of the Tribes at Overfelt High school. Unfortuantely, Lance and I were not allowed in because our attire was believed to be "gang colored." It was because of the little TEAL I had on my shoes and the GREY LOAFERS that Lance was wearing. We said fuck it, and bounced. We went to go eat at Chili's and played ping pong for a chunk of the day haha. The night arrives and it's almost time to head over to Fallon's with the homies. Kevin was working and we were waiting for him to get off. We all finally meet up at 7-11 and it's about 11:00 pm. Before we all head over there, I text a good friend of mine just to see what the situation is. He informs me that pretty much everyone is going to sleep. Honestly, I was a little disappointed, but I completely understood. They just had a show, danced like crazy, and I'm sure they were tired. I just said "It's ok, I understand. Thanks for letting me know." The only problem I had at this point was just finding something else to do.
Then I get a call from Fallon. She basically tells me what I already knew, that everyone is tired and are about to crash. I just say, it's ok. She also tells me that everyone thought I was at a party in Milpitas and that I basically flaked on everyone.....would I really do that? I have no idea where that rumor came from but that was the word that was going around, even though I had not talked to them in a week. Let me tell you, I was not at a party in Milpitas. The last thing I said to everyone was "Get together at Fallon's on my bday after Battle of the Tribes." She said she heard it from someone...hmmm, suspicious much? So in result, people "left" because they thought I having a blast in Milpitas. LOL. Moments later, I get a text from my friend. He tells me he just lied to me and feels really bad. I find out that Fallon told him to tell me not come over because everyone is pretty much gone. But really, people WERE there and the real reason was that Vanessa and her girlfriend JJ wanted to come through to the house. Since they wanted to come over, Fallon couldn't have me there because it'll have an awkward atmosphere and all this bullshit. I became furious. Not because it was my birthday, not because couple of the year was going to be there, I was pissed off because Fallon lied to me, to my face, well, it was on the phone, but she was putting all this bullshit in my ear.
I couldn't believe it. Remember how I said earlier that Fallon was a good friend? I have no idea what happened. I don't know what I did to deserve a betrayal of epic porportions. I'm completely truthful when I say I would not have given a shit if Vanessa and her sidekick were there. I didn't invite them, but it's not like I can kick them out, I would have just gone on with my business. All that scheming was unnecessary. I get a call from Layne, a down ass girl thats not afraid to say what's up and a good friend, and she tells me that all of them were confused as to if I was still having the get together at her place. Wasn't I? I recall telling everyone to be there and nothing more. She reasons that it was because I never really "confirmed" anything, especially with the house owners. She was right, maybe I could have been a little more clear as to what was going on. But the thing is, I didn't know how clear a simple get together had to be. I don't know what could be more clearer than "Meet up at Fallon's after your show." Another thing is that no one bothered to ask me themselves. They all have my number and not one person "confused" called me or txted me. They just assumed. Last time I checked, we're not little kids anymore and we don't need a daily reminder as to what is happening throughout the week. If anything was changed, I would have informed everyone, other than that, what was planned was still planned.
That is what went down that night. I still had a good time as me and the homeboys just went to Addy's house and played beer pong. It still left a burn inside me to know that friends that I thought were real, were playing me the whole time. If they really didn't want me over and simply told me the REAL reason why, I would have been ok with that. I would be a little upset, but it's better than being lied to. What's worse is that some people who don't know my side of the story think I'm just some jerk that ditched everyone. Am I going to try to clear things up with everyone? Honestly, I don't really care. People can think what they want, but I know that I ultimately got screwed in this situation. I also heard through the grapevine that Fallon was a little upset because she felt used because I haven't talked to her in a while. Yeah, I wanted to use her house, but it wasn't like I was going to bring a whole bunch people they didn't know. It's not like I wasn't going to talk to her and shit. I wanted to catch up and see what was going on with everyone. I've been busy with my own shit and they've been busy with theirs. What's the problem? And if people feel that I don't try to keep in touch, was that not an attempt to see people right there? For my birthday, I wanted to see people. That is it. But apparently, there HAS to be drama some way or another.
As for my friend who revealed the truth, he told me not to say anything, but honestly, something like this can not be kept quiet by me. I'm going to say something and I'm going to let people know what happened. Out of all people who believe in saying what's on your mind, he should understand the most. As for the aftermath, I was really drunk and I angry texted Vanessa saying some crazy ass shit. I admit that I was out of line there and I apologize for my actions. Only HALF of the things I didn't really mean. hahaha. She said it's not really her fault because Fallon was the one that asked them to come over. If that's the case, then I guess it really isn't her fault, but I don't know who to believe. Bullshit can come in different sizes and shapes, but it's still bullshit. I'm not looking for people to take my side, I just want to inform what really happened.
Rinse and Repeat
I'm having trouble trying to decide what to write about in this post, and I realize that again, my life is such a cycle that I'm starting to get really annoyed.
You know what annoys me? Pessimistic people. I am not going to lie though, I sound pretty fucking pessimistic myself in my posts, but I never USUALLY act out the negativity towards my friends, peers or family. I feel that I don't see any of them enough for me to merit a bad time with them. Honestly, if someone were to ask me how life was for me, I would say, "Great, wonderful and simplistic." The problem with that response is that work is something that throws it off, but that doesn't go to say that work is a bad place. I feel blessed to be working in Best Buy, to be part of the strongest teams in-store, to have respectable and respecting co-workers, and to be diligently working everyday without feeling the strain of the word, "job." But it's the fact that I have to work now to keep myself supported. Working so much, yet having the feeling of getting no where. If I were to lose my job and ever be jobless now though, I would feel even more useless.
My work ethic, is to keep working to keep moving up. Ever since I started working at Kumon, I noticed that what I did, was work hard, so hard I would feel my balls drop to the ground sometimes. But I am not regretting it, I always fight for the upper positions in management. I don't care whose there, if I see that I am capable for the position, it's in my sight.
It's hard for my to believe that I'm almost half way done with my first degree of school. I feel like it's going too fast, and that I'm not even truly trying my best in school. Don't get me wrong, I think school is one of the most important things we can have, but the fact that sometimes I just want to relax.
I was going to make this post extra long, but something came up. And my stress levels are just too high. Until next time.
good night
You know what annoys me? Pessimistic people. I am not going to lie though, I sound pretty fucking pessimistic myself in my posts, but I never USUALLY act out the negativity towards my friends, peers or family. I feel that I don't see any of them enough for me to merit a bad time with them. Honestly, if someone were to ask me how life was for me, I would say, "Great, wonderful and simplistic." The problem with that response is that work is something that throws it off, but that doesn't go to say that work is a bad place. I feel blessed to be working in Best Buy, to be part of the strongest teams in-store, to have respectable and respecting co-workers, and to be diligently working everyday without feeling the strain of the word, "job." But it's the fact that I have to work now to keep myself supported. Working so much, yet having the feeling of getting no where. If I were to lose my job and ever be jobless now though, I would feel even more useless.
My work ethic, is to keep working to keep moving up. Ever since I started working at Kumon, I noticed that what I did, was work hard, so hard I would feel my balls drop to the ground sometimes. But I am not regretting it, I always fight for the upper positions in management. I don't care whose there, if I see that I am capable for the position, it's in my sight.
It's hard for my to believe that I'm almost half way done with my first degree of school. I feel like it's going too fast, and that I'm not even truly trying my best in school. Don't get me wrong, I think school is one of the most important things we can have, but the fact that sometimes I just want to relax.
I was going to make this post extra long, but something came up. And my stress levels are just too high. Until next time.
good night
Late Nights
To face myself upon a world of never-ending uncertainty.
In other words, shits just confusing the hell out of me. To be forced into the certain emotions I feel, is something I never can truly handle. Through my current and past life experiences, nothing has prepared me for what I have seen.
I hate to speak in an abstract manner, but I will say that decisions are decisions. Emotions are emotions and feelings are feelings. Whatever you can do and whatever your heart desires, take it. You never know if you get the chance again.
To refrain from any more depressing words, I actually heard a very great tip from a fellow co worker. If someone were to ever offer you anything a piece of something, take what you WANT. If you were to ever offer someone something, and they took what they want, at least your expectation about them isn't as horrible as it seems. It may make you seem greedy, but in reality, if someone takes more of a piece than you normally would, you would judge that person.
For example, you have a bag of chips and you offer me some. I gladly accept your offer, but I will grab two handfuls of it because you offered something I probably wanted. That way, if you grabbed two handfuls from a bag of chips I had, I couldn't judge or hold that against you.
If any of you have any questions regarding car audio installations or things with cars in general, feel free to ask me. I may not be the most experienced, but the only way for me to learn is to get my hands dirty and diagnose the problems myself.
As for a last few words, don't ever play ping pong with vans. Blisters are inevitable.
good night
In other words, shits just confusing the hell out of me. To be forced into the certain emotions I feel, is something I never can truly handle. Through my current and past life experiences, nothing has prepared me for what I have seen.
I hate to speak in an abstract manner, but I will say that decisions are decisions. Emotions are emotions and feelings are feelings. Whatever you can do and whatever your heart desires, take it. You never know if you get the chance again.
To refrain from any more depressing words, I actually heard a very great tip from a fellow co worker. If someone were to ever offer you anything a piece of something, take what you WANT. If you were to ever offer someone something, and they took what they want, at least your expectation about them isn't as horrible as it seems. It may make you seem greedy, but in reality, if someone takes more of a piece than you normally would, you would judge that person.
For example, you have a bag of chips and you offer me some. I gladly accept your offer, but I will grab two handfuls of it because you offered something I probably wanted. That way, if you grabbed two handfuls from a bag of chips I had, I couldn't judge or hold that against you.
If any of you have any questions regarding car audio installations or things with cars in general, feel free to ask me. I may not be the most experienced, but the only way for me to learn is to get my hands dirty and diagnose the problems myself.
As for a last few words, don't ever play ping pong with vans. Blisters are inevitable.
good night
Fakes.
Streak.
I realized something at this hour. This hour being that it is currently five in the morning. I seriously believe I have insomnia, but my name isn't Craig David. HAHA, I'm so clever. Anyways, I realized how much bullshit I can produce on this blog of ours. Before this whole blogging hype, I was never really into...sharing my feelings to people, especially on the internet. Honestly, I always saw it as people crying for attention and looking for others to comment about their complaints about the world. Yes, for some reason I thought the only thing that people blogged about were sad things. Then Kevin started a blog of our own. At first I wasn't really into it and I didn't know what to write. As you can obviously see now, that really isn't a problem for me anymore. haha. But I also learned an important lesson about myself and blogging.
I can understand why most people blog, and I say most because I still think some people just blog looking for the sheer naive attention that they desire. But the funny thing is is that that is exactly what blogging is about. That last sentence was weird. Blogging is about trying to be heard. I'm not talking about the "OMG listen to me because I need to know I exist and I want some attention!!" I'm talking about the "Hey, I've got some interesting shit you might want to hear, so listen it up." We all got something to say. In today's world, society flourishes in outspokeness. In fact, it's what brought us here. If no one had anything to say, we'd still be living a primitive life eating rocks and shitting on ourselves.
Blogging, the way I see it, is as a poet with his poetry, or an artist with his paintings, or a musician with her music, or a playwright with her plays. It's a tool made for expression. Of course it isn't as creative or artistic as a musical piece or a masterful painting, but that's exactly what makes it so addictive and approachble. You don't have to have amazing skill or talent to blog. The minimum requirements to blog is to know how to type and basic grammar skills, but even then, some people don't have basic grammar and they still blog! It's human nature to want to be heard even if no one is listening. The simple fact that people get their thoughts out there keeps us all introspective, but as well as outrospective.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I blog because I have something to say. And I could care less who or how many people read it. I do it because I try to make tangible the many thoughts that are in my mind. I'm sure that that's why you see people start to blog nowadays. It's the new thing now. We live in a world where technology is advancing at an incredible rate, so why not use our technology to advance the way we think and the way we express ourselves.
Proposal.
So every once in a while, I'll be talking to a friend and sometimes he or she will bring up the fact that they occasionally read up on our blog here and there. Let me tell you, I'm flattered. People actually care!? Probably not. I bet most of our readers are seriously just bored and already checked up on their myspace/facebook/friendster/xanga/findapix. I just want to ask for one thing:
LEAVE A COMMENT! I know that sounds a little desperate, but I'm serious! Let us know what you think, give us opinions, whatever! If you hate every single letter that we type, let us know. We'll start using numbers so everyone else will have to decode it. Or if some of you beautiful ladies out there, which I know are in overwhelming numbers, confess your love to us. It's ok...we might give you a chance =).
But in all seriousness, leave us a quick note in the chatter box or if you have something to say about a specific blog we wrote, comment on it. You don't have to put your real name, you can put a screen name or a pseudo name. I also wanted to put out there, if you have any questions that you want to ask us or topics you might want us to elaborate on, we'll be gladly to blog about it. It could be about ANYTHING. Politics, business, technology, religion, video games, pop culture, love and relationships, sex, drugs, music, why are we so sexy? omg I could go on for days.
I'm not expecting for all of you to constantly sit there and come up with a whole bunch of shit to ask us, but once in a while if your bored, shoot us a topic and we'll write back. We check up on this a lot so we won't miss it. Even if we don't get anything after this amazing attempt for feedback, don't stop reading. Trust me, just knowing that people actually read this shit actually makes me happy. Thank you all!
LEAVE A COMMENT! I know that sounds a little desperate, but I'm serious! Let us know what you think, give us opinions, whatever! If you hate every single letter that we type, let us know. We'll start using numbers so everyone else will have to decode it. Or if some of you beautiful ladies out there, which I know are in overwhelming numbers, confess your love to us. It's ok...we might give you a chance =).
But in all seriousness, leave us a quick note in the chatter box or if you have something to say about a specific blog we wrote, comment on it. You don't have to put your real name, you can put a screen name or a pseudo name. I also wanted to put out there, if you have any questions that you want to ask us or topics you might want us to elaborate on, we'll be gladly to blog about it. It could be about ANYTHING. Politics, business, technology, religion, video games, pop culture, love and relationships, sex, drugs, music, why are we so sexy? omg I could go on for days.
I'm not expecting for all of you to constantly sit there and come up with a whole bunch of shit to ask us, but once in a while if your bored, shoot us a topic and we'll write back. We check up on this a lot so we won't miss it. Even if we don't get anything after this amazing attempt for feedback, don't stop reading. Trust me, just knowing that people actually read this shit actually makes me happy. Thank you all!
Check up.
It's been a while since our last post, so I figured "heck, why not hit up the old blog and let our readers enjoy a brand spankin' new post about more useless and random shit." lol. Once again, most of the blurbs I ever make are in the late night hours where most people should be sleeping.
Anyways, the biggest thing I have to offer I guess is that I've been going to the gym lately. I've always been wanting to go to the gym, but just been really lazy. Isn't that what most people are like? I finally got off my ass and started working out. Let me tell you, it was no easy task trying to get back into shape. The last time I seriously worked out, in a consistent amount of time was senior year of high school. I was pretty fit. Played football, worked out, and did a lot of outdoor activities. I would say that the defining moment of my hiatus on physical conditioning was when I first dislocated my shoulder. That was a shitty day.
Everyone knows a dislocated shoulder sucks. A dislocated anything sucks. Eventually I recovered meaning I could move my arm again, but I found out that once I dislocated my shoulder, I would have to rehab it and strengthen it. Like an idiot, I did not do so. I pretty much just laid off anything physically strenuous and went into this state of stagnancy. Not only did I not rehab my shoulder, I dislocated it two more times within a year and a half. Ouch. Since then to about a month ago, any muscle in my left arm was gone. Along with my arm, I just gave up on my whole body. I gained some weight to the point where I started noticing it! That was a red flag for me. I've never been like...super fit to where I had muscle upon muscles, but at least I was in shape and I didn't LOOK like I was lacking physicality. So in result I was really motivated to get back into working out.
I just think sometimes how dumb I was to not keep working out. It wasn't like I didn't know what I was doing. I took weight classes and I worked in two different gyms so I had some knowledge about working out. I was just plain lazy. But NO MORE!
I've been trying to get Addy and Kevin to work out with me because I wasn't the only one complaining how we need to get back into shape. Kevin is always busy with work and school and Addy....is just lazy sometimes. hahaha or he's tired from work. Whatever. lol. But they do go whenever they can. I'm just trying to get them to sign up so they would start paying money...and then they would really have to start going.
Anywho, just wanted to let all you lovely people know what's been going on with my life lately. That's pretty much it. My cousin's birthday is coming up and so is yours truly. I'll give birthday shout outs this month because it's my month and there's a shitload of people born in May. Yeeee! If you have a birthday in May, let us know and we'll leave a blog that day...or try to. lol. I'm gonna go catch some Z's now...adios!
Anyways, the biggest thing I have to offer I guess is that I've been going to the gym lately. I've always been wanting to go to the gym, but just been really lazy. Isn't that what most people are like? I finally got off my ass and started working out. Let me tell you, it was no easy task trying to get back into shape. The last time I seriously worked out, in a consistent amount of time was senior year of high school. I was pretty fit. Played football, worked out, and did a lot of outdoor activities. I would say that the defining moment of my hiatus on physical conditioning was when I first dislocated my shoulder. That was a shitty day.
Everyone knows a dislocated shoulder sucks. A dislocated anything sucks. Eventually I recovered meaning I could move my arm again, but I found out that once I dislocated my shoulder, I would have to rehab it and strengthen it. Like an idiot, I did not do so. I pretty much just laid off anything physically strenuous and went into this state of stagnancy. Not only did I not rehab my shoulder, I dislocated it two more times within a year and a half. Ouch. Since then to about a month ago, any muscle in my left arm was gone. Along with my arm, I just gave up on my whole body. I gained some weight to the point where I started noticing it! That was a red flag for me. I've never been like...super fit to where I had muscle upon muscles, but at least I was in shape and I didn't LOOK like I was lacking physicality. So in result I was really motivated to get back into working out.
I just think sometimes how dumb I was to not keep working out. It wasn't like I didn't know what I was doing. I took weight classes and I worked in two different gyms so I had some knowledge about working out. I was just plain lazy. But NO MORE!
I've been trying to get Addy and Kevin to work out with me because I wasn't the only one complaining how we need to get back into shape. Kevin is always busy with work and school and Addy....is just lazy sometimes. hahaha or he's tired from work. Whatever. lol. But they do go whenever they can. I'm just trying to get them to sign up so they would start paying money...and then they would really have to start going.
Anywho, just wanted to let all you lovely people know what's been going on with my life lately. That's pretty much it. My cousin's birthday is coming up and so is yours truly. I'll give birthday shout outs this month because it's my month and there's a shitload of people born in May. Yeeee! If you have a birthday in May, let us know and we'll leave a blog that day...or try to. lol. I'm gonna go catch some Z's now...adios!
People..
I learned many, many things today about how people work and how word gets around.
I'm typically good at reading people, being that stereotypical psychologist, and deciphering what their intentions and ideas are. Today, just proved that the theory about myself proved true. I'm going to be as vague as possible as far as details go but I am going to try and keep the main idea going. So I hear something about myself, something that typically goes behind closed doors. I'm usually a good sport about not allowing the backstabbing to affect my relationships. But right now, I don't know who to believe in my situation. Here I am, fighting to stay away from stress, but I have this amazing magnet on me that just seems to love sticking with me.
Anyways, straying away from a stressful topic.. We had a game night this night. Very interesting, being that it was seriously just a night of Sequence. Please, if you know how to play, I challenge you. I am a strategist, one who will strategize against your best strategies. I'm too tired for a real post.
I'm typically good at reading people, being that stereotypical psychologist, and deciphering what their intentions and ideas are. Today, just proved that the theory about myself proved true. I'm going to be as vague as possible as far as details go but I am going to try and keep the main idea going. So I hear something about myself, something that typically goes behind closed doors. I'm usually a good sport about not allowing the backstabbing to affect my relationships. But right now, I don't know who to believe in my situation. Here I am, fighting to stay away from stress, but I have this amazing magnet on me that just seems to love sticking with me.
Anyways, straying away from a stressful topic.. We had a game night this night. Very interesting, being that it was seriously just a night of Sequence. Please, if you know how to play, I challenge you. I am a strategist, one who will strategize against your best strategies. I'm too tired for a real post.
Warmth.
You know, I just wanted to go off Kevin's blog or blurb about music. Music is seriously the best thing in the world. I think about it and a lot of people would probably say they can't live without money or a car or pussy, but if we lived in a world without music. It would be a terrible life to live. I know this post might be pretty pointless because it's like "well no shit music is important, it's been around since the dawn of man." Yeah I know that, but I just wanted to share how music is important to me.
Through the bullshit in my life, I know there is a song out there that I can relate to. Nothing makes me feel better than a tune that just resonates with my soul. I know that sounds cliche, but I really do get that feeling. Every night when I sleep, I like to listen to music mainly because I hate complete silence. I always have my music on, if I'm doing homework, playing games, or chillin; I never get tired of it.
Another thing that I want to share is, which I usually don't, is my enjoyment to sing. I like to sing, but not many people know that because I'm really shy to sing out loud. Now I've been told that I'm a "good" singer, but I don't really know if people are just being nice. Whatever their true opinion may be, I personally think I'm alright. I'm at least musically tuned to know if I'm off-key or if I can or can't sing a certain note. I don't have a magically gifted voice that just dazzles people, but I also don't have a voice that sounds like a cat being strangled. I guess I bring this up because I can understand why Kevin wants to learn how to sing, as do I. Sometimes when stuff is on your mind and you want to express it, simply just talking it out doesn't do the job; that's why most people sing. You're just putting yourself out there and putting meaning behind what you're singing. I think about all those R&B artist like Ne-yo or Usher and appreciate the fact that they aren't just expressing themselves by talking about it on a track, but by singing their hearts out. But beside all the fame and talent that they have, the reason they sing is the same reason I sing, they just do it better. Haha.
Honestly, whenever I go through some certain situation, such as the most recent one, I find myself listening to a song that I can relate to and just singing it the best I can because it's what I have to say without just saying it. I really do want sing publicly sometimes, but I guess I'm afraid that people will think I'm terrible or whatnot, but honestly, I shouldn't worry about if they like me or not. I should be singing because I have a message to convey and share with other people. Of course it would help if I actually sang well lol. I don't know...I was thinking about working with Kevin and put down some videos of our attempt to be musically talented. It's something to do. I guess y'all just have to see.
Through the bullshit in my life, I know there is a song out there that I can relate to. Nothing makes me feel better than a tune that just resonates with my soul. I know that sounds cliche, but I really do get that feeling. Every night when I sleep, I like to listen to music mainly because I hate complete silence. I always have my music on, if I'm doing homework, playing games, or chillin; I never get tired of it.
Another thing that I want to share is, which I usually don't, is my enjoyment to sing. I like to sing, but not many people know that because I'm really shy to sing out loud. Now I've been told that I'm a "good" singer, but I don't really know if people are just being nice. Whatever their true opinion may be, I personally think I'm alright. I'm at least musically tuned to know if I'm off-key or if I can or can't sing a certain note. I don't have a magically gifted voice that just dazzles people, but I also don't have a voice that sounds like a cat being strangled. I guess I bring this up because I can understand why Kevin wants to learn how to sing, as do I. Sometimes when stuff is on your mind and you want to express it, simply just talking it out doesn't do the job; that's why most people sing. You're just putting yourself out there and putting meaning behind what you're singing. I think about all those R&B artist like Ne-yo or Usher and appreciate the fact that they aren't just expressing themselves by talking about it on a track, but by singing their hearts out. But beside all the fame and talent that they have, the reason they sing is the same reason I sing, they just do it better. Haha.
Honestly, whenever I go through some certain situation, such as the most recent one, I find myself listening to a song that I can relate to and just singing it the best I can because it's what I have to say without just saying it. I really do want sing publicly sometimes, but I guess I'm afraid that people will think I'm terrible or whatnot, but honestly, I shouldn't worry about if they like me or not. I should be singing because I have a message to convey and share with other people. Of course it would help if I actually sang well lol. I don't know...I was thinking about working with Kevin and put down some videos of our attempt to be musically talented. It's something to do. I guess y'all just have to see.
Fountain
Before I lay down, I want to recommend each and every one of you to put aside 3 hours of your time to watch the epic piece called, "Planet Earth." Mainly comprised of non-human altered segments of the world, it shows us ignorant humans how life really goes everywhere other than our cozy little shelters. How beautiful time and life is when you actually go out to see it. I see myself in one of the places, without work and school, and being content. Then again, all I ever do is work and go to school.
Seriously, if anyone is down to give me vocal lessons, get at me. crambosho@gmail.com
good night
Build Me Up Buttercup
I decided that Raymond likes to post too much, so I will intervene on his streak and blurb some shit about my own life.
To be completely honest, not too much has changed, but I gotta say, I've picked up a new love, music. Raymond, Addy and I recently went to the guitar center over by valley fair, and man, those drum machines are beastly, especially this one $3k MIDI keyboard that comes with a drum machine within itself. That, and my ukulele. The biggest thing I want to really work on is my voice. If you guys know anyone, or if you yourself are willing to coach a lonely, bad singer, please hit me up. I figured I'm stuck at home during school and work breaks, that maybe playing the guitar, ukulele and possibly making beats can be what I'm "good" at. Who knows, maybe I'll forget about them in a day or two.
My next song..
Anyways, work has been stressful. I've always worked hard to get to where I was, only to find out that where I've gone, isn't really anywhere. Best Buy recently decided to go through this "restructure" in terms of leadership and management roles in our business. Fortunately, my pay, though not as good as it stands, wasn't affected, nor my position, but my seniors, supervisors and mangers were. That was a lot commas. And that was a run on sentence. Anyways, I've been working my ass off to get that damn full time spot as a senior, but with the position "restructure" it has all but quickened my pursuit for that position. Now, I see myself as yet another lowly, someone who needs to restart and work from the bottom up. Unfortunately, I'm not the salesman I used to be. I realize that I'm more of a leader, a person who gets satisfaction from successful peers. To continue, supervisor spots have gone from about 5-7 in the store, to about 3-4. Supposedly Best Buy has been planning this "restructure" since before the economic recession had begun, but who are we to believe? For all we know, they could have thought about this 2 weeks ago, and panicked in lure of this damn depression.
That leads me to another thought.
What kind of expectation are we putting on Obama? A black man who will take the troops out, save us from this recession, create equality for all races, and make America strong in patriotism? Please, if people weren't so desperate for perfection, then Obama wouldn't be such a saint. Hear me out, Obama, I think, is going to be a significant president, not because of what we EXPECT out of him, but because what he is UP AGAINST. I hate this hype that surrounds the idea that things will change overnight, or even in four years. He's one person, though true backed by government, still needs time to heal anything. Government is a slow moving process.
Anyways, I'm not a big politics guy, but it amazes me to see people begging to get out of the depression, when it requires people to actually spend money. People need to spend money everyday to spread the wealth and put money back into our economic system to get things rolling back to how it used to. Then again, it requires cooperation out of the billions of people that live here, and common sense tells us that any group larger than 10+ have virtually no cooperation.
School ends in about four weeks. Third year is coming up. I could of sworn I just graduated out of high school. Time and time again, I've been trippin over the same bullshit this past year, my life is all work, no play, and moving way too fast. The trip to LA wasn't horrible, in fact, it was one of the best trips ever. Why do I feel a bit of animosity towards it? It made me realize how my life is about living for tomorrow, not today. The things I was doing today was to make sure that tomorrow wouldn't be fucked up, and hopefully for the day that follows. I would plan my life 5 days ahead, literally to the hour, everyday.
So for now, the ukulele will be my best friend, and I will be attempting to work on my voice. Nothing else to it. I've got to do homework so that tomorrow I can hang out with my friends, and to make up for that I have to do my online assignment Sunday night. See that?
Good night.
To be completely honest, not too much has changed, but I gotta say, I've picked up a new love, music. Raymond, Addy and I recently went to the guitar center over by valley fair, and man, those drum machines are beastly, especially this one $3k MIDI keyboard that comes with a drum machine within itself. That, and my ukulele. The biggest thing I want to really work on is my voice. If you guys know anyone, or if you yourself are willing to coach a lonely, bad singer, please hit me up. I figured I'm stuck at home during school and work breaks, that maybe playing the guitar, ukulele and possibly making beats can be what I'm "good" at. Who knows, maybe I'll forget about them in a day or two.
My next song..
Anyways, work has been stressful. I've always worked hard to get to where I was, only to find out that where I've gone, isn't really anywhere. Best Buy recently decided to go through this "restructure" in terms of leadership and management roles in our business. Fortunately, my pay, though not as good as it stands, wasn't affected, nor my position, but my seniors, supervisors and mangers were. That was a lot commas. And that was a run on sentence. Anyways, I've been working my ass off to get that damn full time spot as a senior, but with the position "restructure" it has all but quickened my pursuit for that position. Now, I see myself as yet another lowly, someone who needs to restart and work from the bottom up. Unfortunately, I'm not the salesman I used to be. I realize that I'm more of a leader, a person who gets satisfaction from successful peers. To continue, supervisor spots have gone from about 5-7 in the store, to about 3-4. Supposedly Best Buy has been planning this "restructure" since before the economic recession had begun, but who are we to believe? For all we know, they could have thought about this 2 weeks ago, and panicked in lure of this damn depression.
That leads me to another thought.
What kind of expectation are we putting on Obama? A black man who will take the troops out, save us from this recession, create equality for all races, and make America strong in patriotism? Please, if people weren't so desperate for perfection, then Obama wouldn't be such a saint. Hear me out, Obama, I think, is going to be a significant president, not because of what we EXPECT out of him, but because what he is UP AGAINST. I hate this hype that surrounds the idea that things will change overnight, or even in four years. He's one person, though true backed by government, still needs time to heal anything. Government is a slow moving process.
Anyways, I'm not a big politics guy, but it amazes me to see people begging to get out of the depression, when it requires people to actually spend money. People need to spend money everyday to spread the wealth and put money back into our economic system to get things rolling back to how it used to. Then again, it requires cooperation out of the billions of people that live here, and common sense tells us that any group larger than 10+ have virtually no cooperation.
School ends in about four weeks. Third year is coming up. I could of sworn I just graduated out of high school. Time and time again, I've been trippin over the same bullshit this past year, my life is all work, no play, and moving way too fast. The trip to LA wasn't horrible, in fact, it was one of the best trips ever. Why do I feel a bit of animosity towards it? It made me realize how my life is about living for tomorrow, not today. The things I was doing today was to make sure that tomorrow wouldn't be fucked up, and hopefully for the day that follows. I would plan my life 5 days ahead, literally to the hour, everyday.
So for now, the ukulele will be my best friend, and I will be attempting to work on my voice. Nothing else to it. I've got to do homework so that tomorrow I can hang out with my friends, and to make up for that I have to do my online assignment Sunday night. See that?
Good night.
Shout out.
So I was on facebook and a friend of mine from high school, Cherelle Cruz, wrote this awesome piece on the Notes application. I just wanted to post it up here because I think its a real thoughtful and insightful blurb and I wanted to share it with our readers. Anyways, Check it out:
Realize it, I’m Independent
I was in this period in my life where I wanted a boyfriend. Where I felt that I needed someone there to help me feel that comfort. That one self realization from another. But what I didn’t know, was that my mind was set to be with someone to show others I’m taken, to prove that I am happy with this other individual, to carry on from the pain I possessed inside of my will to make him feel my pain. Him, my old lover, who now I see loves someone else other than me. Him, the guy who I once loved, who I thought was “forever”. When it was for then, for when it happened, for the past, for now is for-never. We have this ideal of saying “never say never”, but I say it because maybe it is a never. Maybe it is a past event that we live in and realize more than what is taken. I’ve felt that jealous behavior than I never intended to. Because the proven fact that I still loved him, that I still think of him, miss him, want him. I wanted something, that something between us where I thought we would last…is now what became nothing... Now, he grows day by day getting to know this other girl. Who soon he will love, and say those three little words that I wanted to hear from him to me but he has this one, this someone he defines his happiness. Sometimes, it hurts. But I can’t let my deepest pain I hold inside be apart within another person. It shows my weakness. It shows that from my weakest point I needed someone and it shows my insecurity. It will show that I was not strong enough to build a self-realization out of me. When we are ever in our darkest light or that weak point, some of us have to learn day by day through our self. Don’t let the pain possessed in you carry onto someone else, because you soon then think that its you when really its not and your soul becomes the weak link of your core. I was close to that point and saw it in others. Saw that their weakest core became an action onto me, testing my feelings that I knew. That I had broken a heart of my lack of knowing me, knowing what I really wanted, knowing that my pain was brought onto the heart that I shattered in pieces. Which then made me see and uncover that life passes by with questions and answers. That as of me, I ask where must I stand? How I stand? What strongly defines the woman I am? I answer to you, to God, to myself that the inner core of this soul, is known for being Independent. I now let myself complete me, not let someone else complete but lighten me more of what can be me, of what is me. I also say, don’t let a guy, a girl find your completeness. You got to find it, then that other person will liven it. Which then makes you a better person within. Real love will come my way unexpectedly and in this state of mind of now I’m not ready. I’ll live for me and I had realized that I’m better as this individual. What makes me out of other women who may lack their security, is this Independent Soul.
www.youtube.com/mscherellecruz
http://www.myspace.com/tahitihipz
Realize it, I’m Independent
I was in this period in my life where I wanted a boyfriend. Where I felt that I needed someone there to help me feel that comfort. That one self realization from another. But what I didn’t know, was that my mind was set to be with someone to show others I’m taken, to prove that I am happy with this other individual, to carry on from the pain I possessed inside of my will to make him feel my pain. Him, my old lover, who now I see loves someone else other than me. Him, the guy who I once loved, who I thought was “forever”. When it was for then, for when it happened, for the past, for now is for-never. We have this ideal of saying “never say never”, but I say it because maybe it is a never. Maybe it is a past event that we live in and realize more than what is taken. I’ve felt that jealous behavior than I never intended to. Because the proven fact that I still loved him, that I still think of him, miss him, want him. I wanted something, that something between us where I thought we would last…is now what became nothing... Now, he grows day by day getting to know this other girl. Who soon he will love, and say those three little words that I wanted to hear from him to me but he has this one, this someone he defines his happiness. Sometimes, it hurts. But I can’t let my deepest pain I hold inside be apart within another person. It shows my weakness. It shows that from my weakest point I needed someone and it shows my insecurity. It will show that I was not strong enough to build a self-realization out of me. When we are ever in our darkest light or that weak point, some of us have to learn day by day through our self. Don’t let the pain possessed in you carry onto someone else, because you soon then think that its you when really its not and your soul becomes the weak link of your core. I was close to that point and saw it in others. Saw that their weakest core became an action onto me, testing my feelings that I knew. That I had broken a heart of my lack of knowing me, knowing what I really wanted, knowing that my pain was brought onto the heart that I shattered in pieces. Which then made me see and uncover that life passes by with questions and answers. That as of me, I ask where must I stand? How I stand? What strongly defines the woman I am? I answer to you, to God, to myself that the inner core of this soul, is known for being Independent. I now let myself complete me, not let someone else complete but lighten me more of what can be me, of what is me. I also say, don’t let a guy, a girl find your completeness. You got to find it, then that other person will liven it. Which then makes you a better person within. Real love will come my way unexpectedly and in this state of mind of now I’m not ready. I’ll live for me and I had realized that I’m better as this individual. What makes me out of other women who may lack their security, is this Independent Soul.
www.youtube.com/mscherellecruz
http://www.myspace.com/tahitihipz
Tonight.
Tonight, I lost a close friend.
Normally, I wouldn't post about this sort of stuff, but it's really important to me. And I wouldn't post this if I wasn't sure about this. I never had such a deep reflective look on my life before. I always thought I knew what I was talking about or what I was doing, but I guess I didn't. I can say that the greatest and worst thing for me was that I made a mistake. Worst because I lost someone. Greatest because I learned something. I learned that I am not above anyone. I am human and I make mistakes. I learned to move on and live life. I never thought it would come to this, but it did. My failure to be smart about things led to my demise. I made her feel bad about a lot of things and influenced her when it was none of my business. I only tried to help because I cared so much. Regardless, what happened happened and there is no excuse.
I am going to say I will truly miss her. Not because of the relationship we had or the things we did, but the feeling I had when I was around her. I don't know what it was, but it was a connection. I always looked at it for the very moment it was there. It was about the now for me and not the later. Which is exactly why I must move on. The "now" is that she's gone. I don't care what anybody says, I'm hurt because I lost a friend.
We can no longer be close because of certain stipulations. I was once the man that she could talk to about anything, the one she could cry to, yell at, and just be that someone that listens, but no more. I could tell her anything and she would listen, but no more. It's a sad thing to see happen, but it happens. I only wish that it is still there in the future, but like I said, I don't look into the later, I'm looking into the now on this.
I just want to say I'm sorry. Sorry for any hurt I put you through. Sorry for any anger that I caused you. Sorry for being in your life at a time where I shouldn't have been. Would I change anything? No. Hate me all you want. My feelings remain. I'm not asking for any sympathy or empathy. I just want to express myself. The only thing I'm worried about is myself. What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger right? I live my life for the life I live. Goodbye, Ness.
Normally, I wouldn't post about this sort of stuff, but it's really important to me. And I wouldn't post this if I wasn't sure about this. I never had such a deep reflective look on my life before. I always thought I knew what I was talking about or what I was doing, but I guess I didn't. I can say that the greatest and worst thing for me was that I made a mistake. Worst because I lost someone. Greatest because I learned something. I learned that I am not above anyone. I am human and I make mistakes. I learned to move on and live life. I never thought it would come to this, but it did. My failure to be smart about things led to my demise. I made her feel bad about a lot of things and influenced her when it was none of my business. I only tried to help because I cared so much. Regardless, what happened happened and there is no excuse.
I am going to say I will truly miss her. Not because of the relationship we had or the things we did, but the feeling I had when I was around her. I don't know what it was, but it was a connection. I always looked at it for the very moment it was there. It was about the now for me and not the later. Which is exactly why I must move on. The "now" is that she's gone. I don't care what anybody says, I'm hurt because I lost a friend.
We can no longer be close because of certain stipulations. I was once the man that she could talk to about anything, the one she could cry to, yell at, and just be that someone that listens, but no more. I could tell her anything and she would listen, but no more. It's a sad thing to see happen, but it happens. I only wish that it is still there in the future, but like I said, I don't look into the later, I'm looking into the now on this.
I just want to say I'm sorry. Sorry for any hurt I put you through. Sorry for any anger that I caused you. Sorry for being in your life at a time where I shouldn't have been. Would I change anything? No. Hate me all you want. My feelings remain. I'm not asking for any sympathy or empathy. I just want to express myself. The only thing I'm worried about is myself. What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger right? I live my life for the life I live. Goodbye, Ness.
Real Talk.
Ok seriously. Soul Calibur IV. I love that game. If there was one game I am confident with, it's sc4.
I know people has there "game" that they sit on a throne with, such as Lance with Madden, or Kevin with initial D, or addy with....I dont know. hahaha. But Soul Calibur...I'm down to play anyone. Hit me up on xbl: kazoo15
Holla. Btw, as a group, our games are call of duty or left4dead. Yup. We're not nerds. Shut up. lol
I know people has there "game" that they sit on a throne with, such as Lance with Madden, or Kevin with initial D, or addy with....I dont know. hahaha. But Soul Calibur...I'm down to play anyone. Hit me up on xbl: kazoo15
Holla. Btw, as a group, our games are call of duty or left4dead. Yup. We're not nerds. Shut up. lol